A small message for my unborn child.

I always wonder about you, my child. You’re not conceived yet, but I feel you, I haven’t met you yet, but I love you. I often sit & wonder what you would think of this world, will you see the beauty amongst all the bad? Am I going to be a good enough protector, home & mother all in one? I imagine you sleeping in my tummy, all curled up & warm breathing in harmony with my heart beat. My heart almost aches that you can not be here with me yet. I wish I could give you your life sooner my precious, precious little one.. But until then, know that I think of you, every day. & know that I could never ever love another more than I already love you. 
<3 Mama

South Africa

As most know, I have always longed to visit South Africa - not only because some of my family live there but because of its beauty & the people it holds. Luckily for me, one of my granddads friends Tony works out in South Africa teaching. At first Tony went out to do research, but after meeting the people he fell in love. He set up this charity by himself, funded from home. At first I started helping Tony & the children by sending out clothes for them, as they can not afford to buy their own. The children were so grateful & often sent back pictures of them wearing our clothes proudly. The children even spent time making us a lovely 'thank you' poster!

 After a few months I plucked up the courage & asked Tony a little bit more about what he does & if there was any other ways I could help, or maybe even come out to volunteer. So next year in July I have been given the opportunity to go & work with the children in Red Location, South Africa. The children all come to school to learn English, because without this they are unable to sit their exams. The children best learn English through song & dance, so have set up their own choir.

Here on this video, children (aged 10-16 years)  from New Brighton Township in Port Elizabeth, South Africa demonstrate their talent & show you a little slice of their lives;

Plea for Africa sung by The Red Location Children's Choir. Solo by Vuvu

Baba Wetu sung by The Red Location Children's Choir. Solo by 10 year old Aqamilhe

 You can find more videos of the choir singing on youtube - https://www.youtube.com/user/LocationKids

These children really do not have much, & it breaks my heart every time I hear them sing, knowing how talented they are, knowing if they lived anywhere else their talent would be recognised instantly. That's why in July of next year when I go to visit them, we plan on bringing the choir back over to England with us to perform.
This all depends however on how much money we can raise, as it works out around £1000 per child.

On the 30th June (4 days from this post) we have organised a sponsored bungee jump, which anyone can take part in to help raise money & awareness.

We often run Car Boot Sales too in order to raise money.

If you think you could help in any way, whether it be; donating books, clothes, money, or your own time then please do get in touch;

• https://www.facebook.com/RedLocationKids
• LocationKids@gmail.com

 Even sharing this post can help us!!

Thank you.

insomnia

these past few days have been really warm. they remind me of  my younger days in my mum's garden or at my grand parents secret garden. i've spent a lot of time at alex's grand parents house lately, lazing in the sun in the garden, playing with the cats, taking trips to the beach & thinking about life. i seem to have a bad case of insomnia which also gives me a lot of time to let my mind wander. i only struggle for sleep when i feel alone. my mind goes in to over drive and i stay awake, day dreaming. i've found when i sleep alone, i tend to have restless nightmares.

i guess somewhere subconsciously i feel safe knowing there is somebody next to me. its the only time i can rest my body long enough to dream. those nights are bliss.

the nights i'm alone? well this is one of them, where i lay cuddling my teddy eric until my eyes become so heavy they finally fall shut. its a hot night tonight even though the day was breezy, which makes sleep seem even more unreachable. my window is open & my legs are hanging freely down the side of the bed searching for cool air. for now i'll just pray for time to fly until another day.

morning sun rays on our pillow cases

lily napping on the tiles on a warm day

jessie - a cat who likes her own space, but loves the camera

pretty fairy lights in my bedroom
(bad photo I know..)

photos in this post were taken with an iphone & ipod!